So it's 5:20 am and I'm wide awake... this is the most awesome thing EVER

last time this happened was during finals week first semester. I was up and about at 4 in the morning when I didn't have to get up for my finals until 7. I just kinda lay in bed until 7 so I wouldn't wake Jon up, but he woke up anyway. Now i'm just debating whether or not to go lay down and read or do as Rachel suggested and try and make my brain associate bed with sleep so that I might be able to pass out for another couple hours before I have to go babysit.

I don't know what's causing it this time. It might be because last night I admitted to Jon that something's been feeling off lately. I think it's just the long-distance relationship thing. Everybody I've talked to about it says that that's probably the reason. Jon and I worked through it and I feel better about everything and I'm not having doubts anymore, but maybe it's not truely resolved in my mind.

This kid at work decided to randomly give me the Sims 2 University, something I've been jokingly asking for since I got there. I've been assured that he doesn't have a crush on me and that he just likes to do random generous things like that. It kinda went to waste tho... the copy of the game is faulty and it won't install (at least it didn't partially overwrite my regular sims, so I can still play), but now I've gotta talk to him so that he can exchange it for me or so that I can just do it myself. I figured out a way to repay him for it. He really made my day the other day, it was just an awkward conversation to have with Jon on top of everything I had to discuss with him.

Three more weeks until school starts. My dad said that he felt the same restlessness the first summer he was home and that he swore to himself that he'd never go home again. Then he realized that he could make more money at home and went home for his second summer. He then proceeded to tell me that if I stayed on campus next summer, I'd have to pay for my own rent and food and stuff if I was working. He said if I was going to take classes, they'd think of something else. i was kinda hoping to work, but Jon did say (if we're still together) that I can stay with him for the summer, but I'll figure that out when I come to it.

I took some melatonin to help me sleep. I'm hoping that it'll kick in soon. My eyes feel a little heavier, but i think it's a no go from this minute on.

gggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.